I am writing you to inform you that I intend on leaving. I am not going far, but I intend on going permanently. I am only letting you know because no one else understands this feeling in the pit of my stomach, this feeling at the center of my very being. I have chosen to write to you because you are the only person who has tasted these depths of isolation. You understand me.
We are outcasts for only the best of reasons. I plan to pursue a future without being owned and without living falsely. I will be completely true and awakened for the first time in my life. Somehow, I will fill this chasm inside of me.
For months I have felt exhilaration and confusion—I have experienced emotions I never knew existed. I am leaving because I do not know what I am doing with my life or what I truly crave. How can I be my own person when I was in such a stupor for so long? I have made my decision to leave and I am holding true because that is the only way I can be confident in who I am, confident that I am not allowing anyone else to own me.
Please let my children know I love them and that I gave them all that I could. Tell them the world is a harsh place and that they must be careful to keep their eyes open in order to stay afloat.
Please tell Robert I love him, and because I love him I must say good-bye.
My feelings feed into the conversations that I have with myself for my entire day.
If I repeat my to-do list, my faults, and my hardships, where will my heart be?
When I wash myself in the shower and negativity does not wipe away,
I have to make the decision to change the way I’m thinking.
I have to take myself to the next step– a leap of faith.
These topics often feel like they can’t be avoided, but I don’t need to dwell on them.
I create unnecessary anxiety for myself,
because I simply don’t remember to turn it off.
Perhaps it’s my inherent nervousness, but I believe it’s mostly habit.
I know that when I don’t take the time to love on myself,
There’s no one else who can help me get there.
I alone make the conscious decision to think positively.
What about you?
Do you speak to yourself with the same love that you give to others in your life,
or do you unconsciously bring yourself down?
Move up, get up, stand up to yourself. You are in control.
How to get there is simple—think about kindness and continue with positivity.
Take the time to wash away your anxieties and encourage your optimism.
Tell yourself the things you honestly deserve to hear. March 4, 2013
When posing a question to the universe about your actions,
Whose care are you seeking?
If the answer is not you, reassess.
You are the one that matters most;
If you don’t care, why should anyone else? February 18, 2013
Fostering a relationship is your choice but respect is mandatory.
Every relationship must be respected. With a friend or loved one, the task seems fairly simple. With strangers and enemies, it feels almost impossible to listen and understand thoughts and emotions so far from our own, and yet it’s pertinent to leading a life worth living.
Negativity spawns negativity and once it is started, it’s almost impossible to stop it. Always take the high road. By fostering kindness, you in turn foster growth.
We have to be involved in our life and foster kindness in our communities in order to increase the quality of our lives and the lives of those around us. We need to do what’s best for us, beyond the cause. Get involved in the effect. Take part in your own evolution.
What is the act of doing without purpose? Many people consider their jobs monotonous, mind numbing, and repetitive. In today’s society, it is easy to get lost in the shuffle of doing. When thinking about how to get from point A to point B, the purpose behind doing so is often lost. How do we find it?
We, the people of the world, understand that you need a raise, you need your boss’ approval, you need something. We all do. But what do you need to get through the day with a smile on your face? How would that smile influence your day-to-day interactions with people? What really makes life worth it?
If a person does not feel worth in their actions, any good intention can be lost. Consider your job holistically—what couldn’t happen without you? What do you bring to the table? Everyone has it: a purpose. But tell me—what are you doing about yours?
Going above and beyond what is needed often shows character, but going above and beyond yourself in order to maximize your potential takes true strength. What do you need to get there?