Missed Birthday

And when
you act
like I’m falling apart at the seams,
I wonder.

I wonder why I talk so fast,
I wonder why my speech is so pressured,
I wonder why I don’t just make sense to you.

It makes my blood boil;
It’s like my entire debate falls on deaf ears,
Because I can’t just calm down and be understood.

I struggle the most when I can’t get out of my own way to communicate my own ideas.